Good gracious me, i was born on the 27th day of January and that makes me an Aquarius. Many chose to believe that horoscopes actually tells what type of person you are and since i am damn bored now and have absolutely nothing to do because i have to wait for my girlfriend’s class to end and so i decided to see how true is this. I googled and i got PLENTY of predictions and i chose this because amongst all, this seems to be the most comprehensive one. Many thinks that as an Aquarius you will have everything to do with water, NOT! I don’t know how to swim T____T So, here i go;

This is an Aquarian but sadly i'm not even remotely close to that

Hot-hearted man who likes to do thing own his way. He can suddenly decide to do something without thinking of its outcome. He is the type of guy with an inside energizer, so if you fall in love with this type of guy be “patient”, even if you have to follow him a bit. His creative mind could create fantastic idea any time.

If by “hot hearted” it means bed tempered then yes, it fits 110% because i will hunt you down just because you bumped into me without even saying you’re sorry and please don’t try to drive ignorantly stupid when i’m on the road or at least don’t do it to me, you won’t like what you’ll be seeing later. I cannot do things the way people want me to; for example, if my dad asked me to drive to the store and get him a can of Coke, i don’t know why but my instincts will tell me to walk to the store and the reason is not life threatening. I just find joy in doing the opposites. People who knows me should know that i am a person who takes consequences as important as i love Malays. I can’t seem to shut the hell up whenever i am with my girlfriend until the extend that she has to asked me to stop being to lame and shut up because i’d utter nonsense like replacing those little harmless fishes in Fish Spa centres with Pirahnas XD Creative or not, you say for yourself.

If you do not understand or not following him, you won’t be with him for long. A man in this Zodiac will less likely to have a pale skin, and if he has a scar, it would be on his face or on his head. He moves very fast and very energetic, and he has a very self confident in himself. He is not the type to sit down and feel sorry or regret anything for long, especially with “Love”.

I think it’s universal that all people would like to be with people who understands them so that prediction cannot count. I have a rather tan skin and i do have a scar =OO and it’s on my head. I got that scar during when i was still in my primary school years when i was playing this ‘leg kicking game’, thinking back, it was really a stupid game but it’s one of the favorite pass time games available called “Pepsi-Cola” and don’t even start thinking where the hell did that name came from. A maximum of 5 players one round, all gathered together and at the last yell of the word “Pepsi-Cola” we all jumped as far as possible from each other. Everyone will get their turn and a fair chance to kick the other’s leg and to avoid getting kicked. The winner is the last man standing. On a lovely evening while i was playing it during my recess period and as i jumped backwards, suddenly there was this Indian chettiar who ran pass by me and knocked me to the ground. I landed on a 90degree concrete drain slab and the last thing i know, my friends told me i was bleeding like nobody’s business. I had 3 stitches, at least that’s what i am told of on my right hand side head. The doctor blardy SEWED my cranium with strings and needle WTF!!!!!!

I don’t think i move fast because if i do, i would have most probably blogging from Beijing now bragging about how i ate lunch while waiting for the 2nd sprinter in the 100M sprint category. Regarding self-confidence, it only comes when people are not listening to me. I prefer staying in stealth mode. There’s one truth about that description, i’ve always believed in that the beauty of life is that when you make a decision, you don’t look back and regret about it.

He loves justice. He dares to show his opinion or even argue about certain subject even he knows it might bring him problems. He is a very straight forward type of guy. He hardly lies except if he thinks it is necessary and he is not a good liar anyway. He will not lie to you about serious matter, but if he lies he will lay only a small little thing. He is gifted with the ability to be a very social person. He could talk even about subject that he has no knowledge of.

Actually, i don’t love justice. I just love to shove my opinion to people’s face for argument sake and want them to accept my point of view and if they don’t, i’ll just do it the hard way, anything to make them swallow and digest them. I’d say bad things like how my college’s management staffs sucks in front of their face even when my friends are asking me not to and i don’t like innuendos but sarcasms on the other hand are 1337 XD I was told when i was small, i was a very good liar until the extend that nobody knows that i skipped school and went to cybercafes. I even lied to my teachers saying that my parents approved of my doings and i forgot how that works already but sure as hell they believed me. Yes, i will not lie about a serious matter and that’s because i don’t know what is serious and what is not -.- I can indeed talk about a subject that i have no knowledge about and when i converse with people about it, i can make it as if i knew all about it but the bad point is, i’m not sociable at all, in fact i kinda hate people. I just hate to be in a crowded place.

He interests only at the present time and look at the world positively. Many times he feels hurt because of reality, but he will not run away and he will overcome that difficulty. Even he is a high and self confident type and centers his own thought as a main focus, but at the same time he is a kind, cute and polite guy. He certainly is not a mean person.

I was once an optimistic child until i realized how fake humans can be and that’s when i started to see the truth in life, life is not always rainbow and sunshine. I guess i’m sick of what’s reality all about until the extend that i don’t care about it anymore and that’s probably the best way of overcoming it, many accused me of being a very sad and pessimistic person. Many thought that because i portray a sarcasm appearance, it automatically means that i’m a mean person but if i’m really that bad, will i even have friends to begin with?

He likes to help people who are in troubles even he is not asked to. He is the type who feels sorry if you remember bad things he said to you that he had already forgotten, but you did not. Believe him that he is very sorry and give him another chance. Once he decides to do something, he will put all his mind and energy in it either in his “Work”, or “Love”.

I don’t like to help people AT ALL unless it’s to my own benefit, i wasn’t born with a charitable heart but i do feel bad when i remembered the bad things i do on people but most of the time, the bad things i do on people, they deserved it more than anything else. I’ve got to admit if i am determined into doing something, i will do it provided there are no ulterior distractions. If i can complete all the syllabus of SPM in 2 weeks, what else can i do?

He is the type who gambles anything in the casino, so do not even take him there. He does not like pessimistic, low energy, and depress person, especially no brain. Strangely he likes to overpower this type of people to assure that he is more superior. He likes to be the first person to do something. You can see sparkling in his eyes, once he meets a new target or new lover.

I hate gambling but i do love the feeling of winning but i just hate the whole general idea and don’t worry, the only legal casinos in Malaysia that i can possibly reach, as far as i know is Genting Highlands and i hate Genting Highlands to the very root of my grandfather’s grave. Yes, i don’t like pessimistic people and believe it or not, i screw them if i encounter one (ironic eh?) and to be honest, i just love to exert superiority over all kinds of people -.- i mean, who doesn’t? Evidently, who doesn’t like to be first in everything but sometimes, you just have to settle for no.2 -______-!

If you date this kind of guy, do not or avoid showing your face to him with face pack, face mask, always be presentable, nice and cute. If he is quiet then it not means because he is shy, but instead he is only quietly thinking. If you have a chance to ask his X-girlfriend, she will tell you that he is not a shy or quiet type. If he is really and truly in love with you, he will never lie to you at all.

On the contrary, i prefer my girlfriend without her make ups on. I always appreciate the quality of natural beauty but that doesn’t mean i hate my girlfriend when she puts on make ups. I am a very quiet person and i guess the description got me, i’m thinking most of the time. I may look quiet and shy, only to people that i don’t know but who doesn’t, ask my girlfriend and see if i’m quiet now =OOO she’ll fast for 3 days 3 nights just to have my mouth shut T____T

If he gets mad at you, let him be for only a short time he will be normal again. You have to like and be able to get along with his friends, but he does not have to do so with all your friends. Don’t ever think you could make him jealous by flirting with other man; he will just leave instead of making a scene because he is a confident man and has to be the first in everything.

Perhaps this is the best conclusive statement that mankind can make about me and it is true to its every sentence BUT one thing, my girlfriend doesn’t really need to be able to get along with my friends because in the first place, your lover and your friend isn’t something that you might want to jumbled up together. It’s always good to keep them separated.

Those who knows me probably doesn’t know i don’t know how to cycle and for those who don’t know me, probably don’t give a shi- about me whether i know or not =O but i know there are alot of caring people out there who wants to know all about me T_____T Last Saturday was the 9th month both my girlfriend and i coupled up and i am put in charged of all the activities for it because apparently my girlfriend is too occupied with her university’s timetable and whatnot. Initially i only planned to buy her flowers and then maybe take her somewhere nice and spent sometime together and then end with a good dinner but then it would be too normal and it’s our 9th month and we have successfully marked our longest relationship ever because her record ends at 8, maybe 7 while mine stuck at a miserable 3. I don’t know why but i suddenly wanted to bring my girlfriend to a park and maybe do something romantic together and i suddenly remembered there was a park in Shah Alam and we have never been there. We can actually rent bicycles and roam around the park, everything seems so perfect but little did i know there’s one big problem, i don’t know how to cycle -.-

For our 9th month, i planned to give my girlfriend 2 surprises. The clue was “One is bigger than a Boeing 747 and the other, smaller” 2 weeks before, i found a florist that is located in a very secluded area but at least it’s near my house and they look decent. Went in and ordered 3 stalks of Casablanca Lilies, meaning i will have 9 flowers of them which symbolizes 9 months together. The bouquet of flowers will be the “smaller than a Boeing 747″ Having sorted out that, i now face the big problem, i don’t know how to cycle T___T Determined, i went on to Google.com and googled for “How to ride a bicycle” and trust me, i did and apparently i found a site which out of the 15 steps, i only found one step useful and that is to find a bicycle which you can have both of your feet flat on the ground when not on the pedal, this is to give confidence to you in achieving the very essence of the art of cycling, BALANCING!! Keeping that in mind, now i need a bicycle and where can i find one? I can’t be going to TESCO and then take one of their bicycles there and learn how to ride them, that would be a total embarrassment and i still want to be a lawyer.

3 days before our 9th month anniversary, i went to my girlfriend’s house and use one of their bicycles there asking her to teach me how to ride but after a few tries, she gave up on me commenting that i’m hopeless T____T but that never break me although that remark was disparaging. I knew i had to master cycling when Saturday comes but there’s no way i can do my training if i don’t have a bicycle at home and i cannot go over to her house and play with her bicycle and so i leave it all up to fate, i told myself that i got on a bicycle and i maneuvered it but i just can’t get it to balanced up, cycling is not THAT hard and that i will definitely master it on Saturday, right there, the “bigger than Boeing 747″ surprise is complete. Our 9th month celebration has been successfully plotted out. Just when i thought everything was within my grasp, i had the scare on Friday and planned to abandon the whole “going to cycle in the park” event because if i failed to master cycling on Saturday, that would mean that my girlfriend cannot cycle too and that would defeat the very purpose of going to that park and everything will be ruined. I told myself that i will not allow my shortcomings to ruin a plan that seems so perfect and whether by hook or crook, i WILL master cycling on Saturday whether i like it or not even if it means that i will have to go home limping one leg >=(

She has been pestering me and begging me to tell her what’s this “bigger and smaller than a Boeing 747″ surprise is but i never did told her :DUH: but she figured out the “bigger than a Boeing 747″ surprise the night before but she never did got the “smaller than a Boeing 747″ one so that means i can still proceed with my surprise =) It is a known fact that my girlfriend seldom wakes up before 1100hrs if she doesn’t have anything to do and that would be perfect. I went to collect my bouquet of flowers at 1000hrs and then reached her home at 1100hrs and everything is going according to plan, she was still sleeping. I sneaked up to her room door and then knocked irritatingly, i knocked non-stop and i was hoping that she would get pissed and opened the door with the need to yell. When she finally opened the door, she didn’t yell or maybe i lifted up the bouquet of Casablanca Lilies to her face and wished her “Happy 9th months!” ^^ and when her punk`d face appeared i know my surprise has been successful but she did told me that she really wanted to come out from the room and scold whoever that’s knocking the door because it was so blardy irritating :teehee:

We had lunch at McDonald’s and i think they already fixed the “Rounding Mechanism” issue OR i could be wrong, i don’t know because the items that we ordered has a tax amounted to RM0.98 so the rounding adjustment made it to RM1.00, no issue. I’ll drop by to one of McDonald’s around my area and buy either a Chicken Foldover or a Big Mac and update you guys with the details. We finished lunch at 1400hrs and then we left Cheras and headed to Shah Alam via Federal Highway and my goodness, there’s sure a lot of people who wanted to die on that day. We saw 3 accidents on Federal Highway alone and it’s not petty minor scratch and win crap, i don’t know how the Honda Accord ended up facing the opposite direction of the oncoming traffic o_O with its left frontal side smashed badly. After going all through those unnecessary traffic congestion, we finally reached our destination at 0300hrs, Taman Pertanian Malaysia.

There’s no problem in finding parking spaces because there is more than plenty and you’re only needed to pay a minor fee of RM1.00 and it’s flat =D I found my parking space under a good shade and relatively near to the entrance of the park, i brought my school bag together with me and inside it i have 2 towels, one 2 liter water bottle and a hat. Before we enter, my girlfriend had to use the toilet and so i stood outside, while waiting for her i snapped this

I don’t know what was the reason i took picture of these ants but i think i had a purpose but i forgot them already but it doesn’t really matter, right? Maybe i just find them amusing or i was bored. After she was done, we walked towards the entrance and bought 2 adult tickets which costs us RM6.00, the operational hours of that place is 0900hrs to 1800hrs meaning if you’re a very cheap person, you’ll go there as soon as it opens and then exit when it closes and all for only RM3.00 but then again, it was pretty weird as my girlfriend pointed out, we were like the only Chinese couples there =O The weather was disastrously hawt, i bet it’s an at least 34 Celsius out there and as we walked further into the park, i was starting to have regrets by suggesting this place but i was of course hoping that the weather would change soon since that park is like mini national forest reserves, the temperature is bound to go down but i can see that my girlfriend couldn’t be bothered with anything but only one, “Where is the bicycle rental shack?”

The rental shack is not far from the main entrance, it’s on the right hand side and once you enter just walk straight, you won’t miss it. The rate of rental is RM3.00 for the first initial hour and a surcharge of RM1.00 for every subsequent hours. Pretty simple procedure

1. Choose and test the bicycle of your choice from a rather wide selection, mostly Mountain Bikes.
2. Hand over either your driving license or identity card, i gave my expired “P” driving license, we cannot trust anyone anymore these days.
3. You’ll be given a rental slip in return. You have to present this slip when you are returning back the bicycles otherwise you will be charge RM5.00 for loss of slip and maybe lose your whatever card you handed in earlier FOREVER =OOOOO (nola, just kidding la ok)
4. With the slip in hand, you’re not good and ready to go as you’re the temporary owner of the bicycle.

Now the moment of truth and embarrassment T_____T i picked up bicycle and i picked the one which i can have both my feet step on the ground comfortably but the bicycle was small, my girlfriend’s bicycle was bigger T_______T There are 2 roads for us to choose, we took the left one which started off with an uphill cycle. I tried all the stupid things like what a person who wants to learn cycling would do and it didn’t really worked out well =/ my girlfriend had to carry my bag pack for me because she was afraid that i might have problem balancing my body weight with the bicycle. 10 minutes into trying to cycle, i finally got it =D i am actually cycling HAHAHA. To be honest, since i was small i have always have this thing about cycling but my parents never did bothered taking the effort and introduce it to me because they feared that i might get run over by a car during cycling =O I took back my bag pack from my girlfriend because that was the right thing to do.

Having conquered the first uphill cycle, we reached the peak. We decided to stopped and rest there before continuing our journey deeper into the park which is a downhill cycle =D I, of course have to celebrate having successfully mastered cycling and so i reward myself with a gulp of H2O. Life has never been this satisfying. We then cycled downhill and i swear that driving at 170kmph was not even close to as fun as cycling downhill at a speed of at least 40kmph or maybe more hahaha, the thrill of you knowing that one wrong move in balancing and the bicycle will send you flying sky high and end with a dramatic tumbling down. My girlfriend asked for my cellphone so that she can snap a few shots of the environment because she said it was beautiful and so i gave it to her but she shot these instead -.-

Being a very curious person, i wanted to see how does it feels being a Mat Rempit, bicycle version

Obviously i looked constipated more than anything and no, the bicycle is not heavy. The reason why i had that look on my face is because the damn bicycle seat is pressing against my crotch or penis if you think that’s a more sexually arousing term -_-! About that bicycle, my girlfriend told me that the one i picked was for girls =OO but i couldn’t be bothered because all i wanted to look for was a small and easy to handle one and she said it looks funny because of how disproportionate my body size and the bicycle. We then cycled deeper into the park and we came to another YET uphill road and this time, the hill is steeper than the previous one we encountered and if that’s not hellish enough for you, when we were half way cycling out way up that stupid hill then came along this CR-V who drove downhill and it forces us to stop at the side letting it to pass by before we could continue and we all know what happens when you try to start cycling on a very steep hill. It is almost impossible for us to get on the bicycle because before we could put our feet on the pedal, the bicycle is already sliding down -_- and that left us with no choice but to push our bicycles up the hill -_-!

It was about 45minutes into cycling, we realized that we cannot go on anymore without rest and so we parked our bicycles at the side of the road and lied down, yes, we lied down on the road and then my girlfriend started utilizing her picture taking ability, we were staring at this

Although the sun was shining but like what i expected, the temperature wasn’t as high as what we encountered earlier, maybe because of the mass amount of trees that were planted all around that has been absorbing most of the heat. There were winds blowing towards us too while we were on the ground and it feels so good that we wanted to just sleep there, listening to the ambience and sounds that mother nature can make, we felt so… cool.

See, i told you the second surprise is bigger than a Boeing 747 hahaha =P

Checkpoint 1

We came to a halt at this place and decided to take a long rest because both of us are seriously dehydrated and running out of breathe and our legs hurt from all those muscle straining exercises. What i wanted at that point of time was an ice cold isotonic drink be it 100plus or 7-up’s Revive and my girlfriend wanted a glass of ice lemon tea -.- but we all know that’s not going to be possible because we’re in the middle of nowhere. We came to a conclusion that this is as much cycling that we can do today and we must go back now but the problem is which way is the fastest way to go back to our starting point =O we never check out the map that was on display, we’re now in dilemma. We now have 2 choice :-

• we continue cycling deeper into the park and hoping that we would reach the place where we started faster (provided that the route is a big round-a-bout).
• we go back through the road where we came from but face the possibility of a longer journey.

When we were considering which is the best option, my girlfriend took the liberty and snapped a few beautiful shots with my 3MP camera phone.

… and just to show that we really made it that far,

We also took a picture of the bicycles that we rented

After careful consideration, we decided to cycled deeper into the park and pray hard that it is a round-a-bout and it was all easy cycling because the amount of downhill roads is impossible and we were enjoying every second of it but the more we cycled the weirder it becomes because we’re seeing things that i don’t think the park ranger would want us to see, a reservoir and fruit plantation estates. Realizing something is wrong, i knew that i had to asked for directions and so happens that there was a park ranger on our way and so i stopped and asked him how do we go back to the entrance and he told us we have to go back the same we came here O_O both my girlfriend and i had our jaws dropped thinking how far that we’ve came already and it’s definitely not going to be fun doing the exact opposite of what we’ve done earlier. The amount of downhills that we cycled down just now, we now have to cycled up back T_____T we almost cried and begged the ranger to fetch us back in his old Pajero Jeep but i don’t think that’s going to happen. Leaving us with no choice, we started cycling back or else we’ll really be spending the night here :T_________T:

I guess life is not all that beautiful now, bitch!! >=( we couldn’t find the strength to cycle uphill anymore so whenever we reached the uphill section, we pushed our bicycles up and whenever we feel like it’s going to go downhill, we get on our bicycle and let gravity guide us T___T we were very pathetic and we were suffering, we thought we won’t make it and going to die in the park itself T____T all we wanted now are ice cold drinks and preferably of isotonic characteristics and the fact that we cannot have it because we’re in the middle of nowhere is really murderous and so we were talking about how tasty and refreshing it would be if we have it in our hands right now, it’s not a particularly good topic to discuss about. We even talked about wouldn’t it be nice if we have a waterfall which is just footsteps away T___T i’d just jump into it and never to get out of it again but knowing that we still have great things to achieve, we picked ourselves up and continue our journey back through hell. To illustrate how exhausted i was, i almost crashed twice and could end up in a very dipshi- situation :

1. I almost crashed my bicycle to the right side of the road that will send me rolling down a gorge and i don’t know how deep it’s going to go.
2. I almost crashed my bicycle into a small drain on the left side of the road that would most probably leave me with a serious head injury.

Finally, my girlfriend told me that she saw the bicycle shack where we rented our bicycles and you have no idea how happy and delighted we were and i don’t know where we found the strength to get on our bicycles and then cycled so fast. Immediately after handing over the rented bicycles, we headed into the shop nearby and bought drinks. I took a can of 100plus while my girlfriend took a can of Lemonade which tasted horrible :ROFL: Although we were exhausted and tired but we have no regrets in doing what we did =)

I chose this picture to be our 9th month picture because it’s a simple picture which says that we have been walking together through most of the events that happened in our lives. This picture means more if you take into account the things we went through in the park itself, from me learning how to cycle (learning how to love), cycling uphill (going through the hard and difficult times) and cycling downhill (the easy and fun part of our relationship) and we are constantly looking out for each other making sure that both of us are always near to each other and finally, despite all those we still enjoy having each others presence and doing everything together with no regrets.

Alright, what’s been happening lately. My girlfriend is obsessed with facebook because she can’t just seemed to be separated from it even in college and in my house. It’s pretty much got on my nerves and now i’m having an intention to quit it. The next is the reason why i decided to make an entry although i’ve been having no topics to discuss about. If you are following my blog then you would’ve know that my girlfriend enrolled herself in a shitty college called “IMU” short for International Medical University with not much “International” quality i must say. Of course at first it might sound like some highly reputable university since it has everything to do with MEDICINE and everyone worships medicine including me but just the medicines, not the person prescribing it because to me, they are total bullshi-

If you think i have a grudge against this university, think again because what university has orientation day for one whole week which starts from 0900hrs and ends at 2100hrs. It is strange that students now are made to do charity services which i don’t really remember it being compulsory because it has always been optional, IMU MAKE them compulsory and it is on a Saturday, how nice of them =) I’m not here to go against that stupid university but rather the whole concept of “Charity”, yes, i’m talking about going against humanity, forgoing all human values that we’re taught since we’re small about how we should feed the poor, it’s all so idealistic that it’s not practical in the real world. I might be cursed for making this entry but trust me, whether you believe it or not, everyone has a dark side in them but it’s just being sedated with all these good moral values that has been injected into our minds since we were kids. If there’s no such thing, why do people get angry and when they do, they feel like expressing violence? They all make perfect sense.

Orphanage, this is perhaps the oldest living form of charitable non-profit organization around. What does an orphanage do? Well, basically you take in kids who people don’t want anymore or their just being plain pain in the ass. The point is this, why do kids end up in an orphanage? Few possible reasons

1. parents don’t love them anymore and decided to abandoned them.
2. unwanted child meaning accidental pregnancies.
3. their parents passed away in a very horrible accident not even Samy Vellu can help.

Let’s take the first reason, what did the child do to make the parents abandoned their own son who the mother carried for 9 freaking months and for gone through unbearable pain that most people won’t dream of having one just to throw that sick kid out into the world? It must be something really wicked and who can be a better judge than the child’s own parents regarding its quality and characteristics. The parents must have seen something in him that’s beyond redemption and therefore decided to do society a favor and prevent a possible criminal in the future who could be your rapists, murderers and robbers. If that’s so, who in the right mind thinks that the other members of society would be a better judge and claimed that the parents of the child is wrong, the law? One must make clear that LAW has no room for morality issues and if the LAW is known as the best protectors of human rights cannot be the best judge on this issue, who could be in a better position anymore?

One may argue that the parents might be wrong and the kid could actually end up doing something great like create a nuclear bomb and killing millions but isn’t it of general knowledge that kids will NOT grow up normal if they are not being brought up in a proper family condition? You cannot argue that an ORPHANAGE can replace a family because that would be absurd and if that’s arguable, why the need for divorced couples to litigate on child’s rights? Lawyers will go bankrupt and there won’t be a need for Family Law and the whole mechanics of the legal system would just fall right there, the end but that’s not how things work in the world eh? So don’t you think that what the orphanage is doing is actually increasing the population of possible criminals in the world, i think so. The principal here is simple, if they are unwanted that means they are no good, and if they are no good they should just be ‘dispose’ of. Let the kids die, if that’s what nature intended for them let it be.

For children who has their parents killed in an accident, sorry but that’s life. Life isn’t all cotton candy and marshmellows so face it, tough luck that your parents died but life has to go on. You can’t go on around crying and begging for money on the streets and if the world thinks that people should help childrens like this because they are helpless and why not the same is extended to animals as well? I don’t know about other countries but i know Malaysia doesn’t give a shi- to animals, especially dogs because Malays hate them. Isn’t charity all about good will and since it’s goodwill shouldn’t we not discriminate on who deserves to be aided and who doesn’t? Seems to be, this is not the case. What’s best is that when you take in animal and when they grow up, they won’t go around raping people but with human beings, there’s a high possibility of chance that they might since they grew up in an orphanage anyway, screwed up mind.

With all those, i don’t really understand why people still want to volunteer in helping charitable bodies because it’s just plain stupidity. Maybe they wanted to feel better by collecting some ‘good karma’ so in the future, they won’t end up eating crap for the rest of their but i’m not really a firm believe of karma and whole ‘what goes around, comes around’ bullshi- because i’m not Justin Timberlake and if karma really does exists, i would’ve gotten cancer and have 3 months to live but seems to me i’m not in a dying condition yet so screw karma =D Charity has long since evolved from kindness into building corporate image because when you do charity especially if you are someone significant in the society, that would definitely raise your reputation and if you don’t already know, if you’re seen contributing to charity bodies, it would enable you to work in and out of the government bodies easier and of course we all know that by doing charity, you can evade taxes.

IMU, it is a Medical College so i don’t see the link between charities and them and the only possibility of them emphasizing on doing so is because they wanted to attract potential investors because with investors comes finance and with finance means more profit. Big corporate people love to be associated with things that has a charitable function because

1. it will make them look great
2. it will enable them to evade tax

Now, this is going somewhere don’t you think? IMU is smart, it’s exploiting the students to do its dirty jobs. They wanted to get involved in charity works but they don’t want to get their hands dirty and they just remember they had a bunch of new students who are eager to do anything. Everybody loves the word ‘charity’ because it makes you look holy, 99.8% of the total medical students are geeks, i can guarantee you that and with geeks, i mean they don’t get to go out much often to socialize. Perhaps the only time they go out is on school camps 15 years ago and whenever their education institution mentioned a TRIP, their eyes lit up like stars at night and they’ll DO anything to make their certificates look pretty

Some people prefer to look at things optimistically like my girlfriend who thinks life is always beautiful and there’s more right in every wrong but in reality, that’s not how things works. I mean it’s good to be optimistic because that gives you the strength to do the impossible. I on the other hand is a bitter person and prefer to live life in its real core, no metaphors and no candy canes to lit my way. Just me and that stupid road that i have to walk down to have my life end in a fashionable way.

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… and what you’ll get is a very happy evening =) so let the wasting begins!

FUCK LIFE

People often said that anger is a type of emotion that is senseless and has no grounds for its existence and the people who manifest such emotions are person with attitude problem, is this true?

Generally, you don’t see people get angry when they get off their bed and then immediately feeling angry, although there are some, when they are dragged down from their bed involuntarily but the point is, people get angry for a reason and the reason is because they cared too much. There are a few instances that people will get angry;

• when you are told that your clothes look ugly and you have no sense of fashion
• when you are told that your driving skill sucks and someone can drive better
• when you are told that you are lacking in everything compared to another.

Although most of them sounded like an attack on your personal preferences but you get angry because you actually care how people thinks about you. If you are person that doesn’t care about anything, you wouldn’t mind and take into heart what others comment about you. There is a reason why when people tell you to ignore angry people so that you won’t get yourself trouble, doesn’t that phrase sounds exactly “don’t give a shi- about him” ? So next time when you see your friends or any person that you care about feeling all angry, don’t be a bitch, try to find out the reasons behind it.

It would seem like now that the best cure for anger is not to care but i thought humanity organizations are urging people to care about each other? So now the world is in conflict, to care or not to care?

I used to have that don’t care attitude towards anyone i encountered in my life and i can tell you, i don’t have much friends but i do have some and for that some who remained are my best friends. I don’t get angry easily last time because i just simply don’t care about anything, what life gives me i’ll take it and if i don’t like it i’ll just throw it away with no repercussions. I don’t know what changed me but i get angry easily as of late and the only conclusion that i can come out with is that i’m starting to care too much, just WAY too much.

I think about almost every single thing and to the extreme, i’m even thinking about whether my hamsters are getting their water supply because the bottle is sometimes stuck and i really wanted to go make sure that it is not. It may seem an easy task but when you’re very tired, waking up from your bed can be a really frustrating thing to do. I think to myself, wouldn’t it be better if i were a person who don’t care about anything? If the hamsters don’t get their water supply they won’t die, i’ll make sure they’ll get them the next morning but i just simply can’t.

There’s another way of handling anger and that is the infamous “Pedal-To-The-Metal” technique, applicable only if you have a car and make sure that your dad makes it clear to you that it is YOUR car so in the event you crash and burn, your dad won’t be too sad over the lost of the car. I have such practice and does it almost all the time when i’m angry. Nobody actually understands why this help release anger, now let me tell you. When you get angry, your mind tells you that you’re not in control of anything but being controlled and flooring the accelerator pedals makes you control the car and makes it do whatever you want it to do (sort of those “reverse psychology” crap) but the most exciting bit of this process is the anticipation of death. The thought of having the car skid and hitting into something hard which would result in serious injuries and if you’re lucky, death is just great because that would seem to be the best painkiller that the world could offer.

However, that technique is no longer practical because fuel costs RM2.70 per liter now so the best way now for me to manage my anger is using the old “Don’t Care” attitude. I think i cared too much about every single thing in my life and it’s physically and psychologically exhausting and it is very tiring. It’s very hard to achieve that balance that i’m looking for which is almost impossible to be defined.

I know i didn’t give the best argument and i couldn’t draft out any better ones because i am feeling angry because of the reason, disappointment. Whatever it is, i should and must stop caring so much before it consumes me and everything else that i cared for.

The End.